Me: Why this focus, this almost fixation, on the worst case scenario, regardless of how unlikely it is? It is much better now than it used to be, but why is it there at all?
Multiple Ancestors: Protection of course. A horrid fascination with the worst that we can imagine.
Me: Why did this happen?
MA: Some of us were subjected to the worst that could be imagined, or worse than could be imagined even. But that is not where we started. It was the ones left behind. The ones who bore witness to those who experienced the worst. And then dreaded it happening again. Stood on guard against it. Kept their eye on it, as one keeps their eye on a venomous snake.
Me: Even now this seems reasonable, practical, sensible. And yet that twisting knife of a feeling is not one I want to go one with. The rumination is not what I want to go on with.
MA: And yet it stopped nothing. It warded off nothing. It held off nothing.
Me: Truth. I suppose it was our security blanket. Do you see? Something we could do when we knew deep down that there was nothing that we could physically do.
MA: Exactly.
Me: Because we saw only the physical, the thought that there was nothing that could be done physically was unbearable. There was no release. And so we poured in our fear energy and made it all the more massive.
MA: A sensible plan. (laughing)
Me: Truly. Are we done with it?
MA: We’ll see.
Me: Won’t we.