I am surprised by how often I catch myself wanting to experience something different while at the same time not wanting to change any part of my way of being.
Why is that? Why do I fall so often back into the pattern of trying to manipulate and manhandle what is in my external reality without spending any time within?
Is it old habits dying hard or is there something else for me to look at and explore?
If I am honest with myself, when I see or experience something that I don’t want, my first reaction is some degree of panic. And then to assuage that feeling I try to get rid of the thing I believe is causing it.
But I cannot change what I see in the mirror by painting over its reflective surface.
